Life as a Blog

A long awaited post

2005-08-22T11:39:00.000-07:00

Another update:

Well for the past few weeks for anyone reading it’s been 5 weeks since the last entry. It would seem as a lot has gone on. I do keep myself extremely busy with working many jobs and doing a lot of social and family activates.

So here might be some things you missed. A family friend got married. The wedding was situated on the roof of the Japanese language school in the downtown eastside. (Hastings area) it may have seemed a bit sketchy. But this fit well to the bohemian, artsy, holistic, industrial wedding. As odd as it would be to invasion. It was almost spectacular with the decorations and the city skyline. My parents friend who delayed her flight back to Japan was the commissioner for the wedding, she made this a very special occasion by adding a neat little Japanese touch to the ceremonies.

This was the first time I was actually considered “a little-brother” to both Gabe & Heidi. At first it seemed odd. But it’s taken a lot to get used to the fact that it’s almost official. And that my father is actually happy about the way his life has lead him.

Situation with family members. It’s become harder to keep in touch with my siblings in Ontario. As they lead as busy of lives as myself. I do wish we talked a bit more but who knows I never really know what to say with them. My sister I think I can still get along with, but my brother and I tend to think differently. I love them both but if there was a way to communicate a bit better I think I would like that. As well my grandparents are fun to talk with over the summer I’ve learned a lot from them and just how much life was difficult for them during their years. My mother and I fight a lot and it drive me nuts I just with it was the way it was before when we would share some mutual ideas and no fighting would occur. She just flusters me cause she cant let the past stay in the past. And look forward to the future. When she is upset she digs deep and pick up on old issues and re-establishes them. Plus with working a lot ( days a week) I don’t get to spend much time with anyone really (as you can tell my computer & internet have been neglected as well) but she would like to spend time.

More excitement. Morgan had a house party the following weekend. Now I don’t know if it was natural to feel distance, or not. I guess hosting a house party with that many people you would assume would sort of become distant to everyone at points. He just seemed I bit different then I would expect. But he was nice and allowed for me to crash at his place until work. (rest was needed)

On the working front.

Ikea – one of the most interesting corporations, I found that I have been treated with a lot of support and a lot of interesting people. The staff there really enjoy their jobs and what they have been doing for a while a lot of the staff have been there for years! Everyone likes the way we all get treated and that’s one of the major influences that makes me want to travel from Kamloops to Vancouver to continue to work for the company. Not too many employers know just how important employee satisfaction is when dealing with people.

A&W – the drama is all over… I am so excited it’s officially done with I don’t ever want to go back there again I’ve moved on from that crappy employer. Would I suggest anyone to take a job there…. Never it was so bad. The manager and supervising staff have different ideas from one another. It would seem no one really enjoyed there jobs, that much cause they all had differing ideas of how a restraints should be run.

Swiss Chalet – “Alright always so good for so little” Love the job I got heck I have responsibilities, an amazing manger, Holly rocks. Great co-workers. And the fun part I work as a bartender! I play with alcohol for the entire shift. As well as help seat and greet. It’s a blast and a half. The staff want to socialize with one another and when we all get time away. Well we always stop by to say hello or talk to one another.

2005-07-14T21:32:00.000-07:00

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War of the Worlds

2005-07-11T10:55:00.000-07:00

As much as I want to commend Tom Cruise, on his latest film. I d not really endorse his current comments on the entire Psychological field as a whole.

Okay so war of the worlds was an Mandatory read in Grade 7 for me. I read it and it sure was a pleasure read at that. All these pods with aliens “taking over the world”. As odd as it may have seemed, at that time it was nearly impossible.

So I’ve done some more projects on this novel, radio play, original move, and now the Newest film. The continuity has some what been lost in translation. But I guess if you have not read it, heard it, or seen the original you would enjoy it more for the special effects and large sound, as well some really amazing screen shots. As for a movie on whole. It was pure amazement and it went on the list of alright movies. It kept me in suspense to see how much it would be entertaining. But I cant complain. This has got the modern appeal written all over it and has to be one of the better movies I’ve seen in a while in the movie theaters. The sound was LARGE let me tell you. It was great. It reached as good for audio as Cold Mountain for those of you who enjoyed the sound for that.

Creatively produce, wonderfully directed, and designed for the masses I would give this movie a 8/10

In addition on a side note. I’ve been working a lot. So this was a great way to unwind from a long weekend of insanity. We are going onto day #24 of no breaks. So this should be interesting to see. Just how well I can perform on little rest periods. It’s like the test of time and moral judgments.

Simple Plan

2005-07-03T23:50:00.000-07:00

This is not always the best thing. Or is it? Making things simple tends to make me reflect more on how I messed it up in the beginning. Why is it that I can help others with their problems. And when I need help I turn to myself and ask. “Why did you put yourself in this situation?”

I think I must begin to simplifying life a bit more and making a lot less challenges for myself. It’s leading to let downs and that’s becoming less motivating for my progress.

On the work front. Working a lot of hours if good in keeping me out of trouble. But come next week I will be A LOT shorter days and more Kyle time is coming up! YEA!!! Finally a bit of Kyle time.

Family, well my mother and I have bonded a lot over the past few months she is still in Vancouver, but she lives downtown. And I’m not always there for her but I know she likes it when I can make time for her.

My father and I are doing alright and the extended family is going well.

So excited for this summer to heat up. It’s been lovely over this long weekend with working a lot of hours I am rather enjoying a lot of the hours cause then I can pay down tuition a lot.

I’ve become addicted to more and more Simple Plan I find myself getting lost in the website and online chats about them. I want to go and see then in concert… this would be a moment of happiness for me. Many amazing songs, their French-Canadian, and Speak both English and Francais. Makes Me happy.

Boo. If you read this thanks for the MSG, it made my long day feel so much more worthwhile.

Work-a-holic?

2005-06-28T11:19:00.000-07:00

Alright so this has been an exciting week for me. A lot has been on my mind. Things like relationships, marriage, and employment.

So the rough part of life, jobs. I hated the job I had with the restraint, but we have worked out a lot. Yeah I was fighting while at work. But I know what I was doing was bad in some cases, and I accepted the responsibility. (How mature of me) As well I like to say that the store is a bit more organized and if I can I am going to see if I can get a lot of w/end hours for the school year so I can come back to Vancouver and the lower mainland. As I really like walking along the creeks and watersides.

Okay so the last few nights have been interesting. Talking about this Pana-Japanese conference. And the wedding coming up. This for sure is going to be some of the most intense weeks remaining for the summer.

Looking forward to next week meeting a lot of new people who are visiting Vancouver. This should be as exciting as walking around the city alone. If not WAY BETTER!. Also the wedding… eks. It’s in 5 weeks and the whole plan is becoming more of a interesting discussion. I’m looking forward to seeing how beautiful the entire wedding will be and how wonderful wedding are out on the west coast. Which has me sort of intrested in my future. And what life has to offer for me. So as I have been walking around the coastal lines, I’ve sort of been slightly imagining my own wedding. How stupid. And pre-mature. But I think there is the fine location right on Granville Island. … and outdoor weddings are so much fun!!!

Well I should not take to long I have a few things to achieve today like picking up another buss pass.. then off to the store for training… YEAH IKEA!! It’s like heaven and chocolate for little school children.

Happy Birthday to Me!!!

2005-06-17T12:48:00.000-07:00

alrighht so 23 years in the making, and look what i've done

acting
modeling
Boy Scouts
store owner/manager
share holder of a company
4 glorious and fun filled years in Post-Secondary Schooling.
Travelled across Canada severial times
Met a ton of great actors/artists/ celebrities
made a large number of friends
moved from Vancouver-Toronto-London-Vancouver
Raved
experimented
bought my first computer
quit my first job
worked fast food
buiried a loved one
made some enimies
had my heart broken
broke my arm/wrist
cracked my skull open
got drunk (often)
Rushed for a fraternatiy
stole a car (mother's mini-van)

so i've got alot under mybelt. for a 23 year old. but i know that all that behind me has not only strengthended my personal self worth and developed a creative, the exerimentally outgoing person i am today.

I'm always trying to re-creat myself. but as i figured out that i am slowly growning up and becoming a mature person in the yes of the law, civilization that i slowly turn and look at life and ask.. what is next for this person you see before you?
the answer is always unknown and the excitment builds as each day turns into another year.
lets hope the 23rd anniversery will be much more profitable than tha past 22 years. and that things will begin to re-shape/mold into a more complete KYLE.

Huge Sigh.....

2005-06-13T19:32:00.000-07:00

yaya, i got my acceptance back to TRU for the fall.. this was exciting as i for sure was freaking out about not doing all that well in the last year.
oh forsure idi alright but not that uber good. well who else is excited. i know i am .

oh and for thoes intrested... i am not too OLD yet... i mean 23 is a good year no? i know life is slowly creaping up on me and i've become a bit closer to retierment. but i'vestill full of that youthful spirit. and energy. althougth the body is not. but that's a whole nother story.

oh yeah and i got the job @ IKEA, (thanks dad) yeah my dad is super... he helped me get this job. which means i am just a bit mopre happier then i was this week, which is a good thing cause it's hard to cheer me up.

oh, for those also keeping track of my life in a more romantic sence.
HELLO!!! Romantic. as if!
the simple fact is i lack this in my life which at times brings a disgraceful emotion out of myself. to this i tell you all.. if by the age fo 30 and still single... please... shoot me in the foot. i dont personally care which one. but please do it in style.
oh in conclusion. the shooting me in the foot is a joke. but in reality the fact that if still single at 30. please have an intervention with me... PLEASE!!!!

Working hard.. or hardly working

2005-06-07T23:14:00.000-07:00

well this should be intresting i got my next weeks schedule from Fiza the manager over the phone..
7 days in a row? something sounds a bit illlegal! hmm i should be calling both the labour board and the Health board, as i dont think anyone has been trained on WHMIS at all.. i must be the only one including the manager...
yeah i have become too educated. i know too much for these crappy jobs....
plus it helps that i dont buy anything there while at work cause well I've enjoyed my Vegetarianism life that i can reject alot of the foods.
argh it's sure annoying being the ONLY guy who works. cause well yes there is alot of girls to see and potential. but just not intrested in people will little to no brain... there is one chance to get out.. Swiss Chal;et is hiring. this should be fun iu hope i get that. if not then i will go insane.
i got my interview on sunday, as well it's Grandma's b-day... this would mean we dont make too much of a fuss. but you know how family doesi t. they make it seem like nothing serious but they all make their way over to interupt your day... Suprise!!
yadda yadda yadda...
I love my grandmother. although i think she might be giving off not positive signs. she feels lonely. i shall be spending time with here on my next time off which comes closer to see what she wants to do maybe do a Harry potter Marathon. i bet she would enjoy that.... or i would either way.
also talking with my father about maybe taking time off from school to work... maybe.. or taking a reduce courseload just for a year to do some part time with local hospitals or clinics and begin using the knowledge i've aquired..
i think he might go for it.
i'm glad to be back talking with a certain someone. cvause i mean they truely have accuired a good part of my mind and emotions.
today as i walked along outside almost getting hit by a jerk. i walked in the rain for the firsttime in a while. and it had me thinking how wonderful it would be with them... oh well in dear time i guess so the thought of looking for job in the same town as them next time would be very helpful
so tonight as i rest i will be thinking of them all night.

OMGosh, this hyperness has toned down alot . thank the lord cause i was worried i would not beable to rest properly to wake up ontime for work tomorrow. yup i work now.. hahaha. as insane as it would be.
i like to work and the long ride into the town to getthere i can read my book and understand alot more ...
the whole idea of me getting a job has changed my mind.
for thoes who read this blog i would really like to know how you guys have been enjoying the rollercoaster life...
ttyl
i need to rest.

xoxoxo
Kyle

Long time no hear

2005-05-29T13:13:00.000-07:00

alright so i've neglected this blog for a while, just my way of saying how much i really need the internet.

so over the past almost 2 months, i have managed to lose faith in myself as a person. this eems highly unlike myself but i had fallen for yet another self-motivated person. oh well i guess my luck for dating sucks, but hey i dont let the judge my future prospects. life is full of these sorts of people.

the loss of internet when i was up in DaLoopz. was because of the end of temr and i madethe choice not to use it as much as i would normally. cause of studying. althought it did not seem to help too much. oh well.
then i did some travelling, and soul searching and came to realize i am too simple to please. i set the standards high but i shold really take life for it's true meaning. and that is to live... this is sad to think i have wasted almost 23 years of my life thinking it was to please others and make them happy. this is not the best format to conduct this thought so i shall leave it.

also, i did travel this great country. Canada has some lovely locations and some rather drab one too. but the ones i liked the most tended to be in in the Banff, Jasper, Golden, and Field. the views, the chills, and just that crisp feel you get when you step outside and you feel the lovely clean and un-disrupted air. Calgary was nice, but i don't think it was a beautiful as the river flowing through Golden and field. even though there is not much to do up there. i think just vacationing and taking time away from insanity would make life soo much more tranquile. we need more vacation like that in society. and take advantage of these locations.

apone arriving back in Vancouvr there was a sigh of happiness knowing i was where i belonged almost. where my family is and the possible, future relations could be. who knows.
well on a good note i will be signing off.. ttyl

Friends are the best counselors

2005-04-19T10:12:00.000-07:00

Talk about the organization of life, it’s intense

I just spent 4 hours talking to my uber best friend Alyssa. Who has taken time out of her life to tell me how much I’ve been a tool and require a lot of straitening up.

A few things.

One has been the fact that I’ve been a jerk to someone who really matters. This sure enough has not been a big surprise to me although the degree of how much I put a risk. I’ve done it this time.

Last night I spent 4 glorious hours on the phone with my best friend Alyssa. If she was not here for my dramatically life. Then I would have off’ed myself back then. If you can image this ying to my yang.(which almost seems dumb as I type this out, but made sense when it was developed)

Alright, so the situation at hand would be the fact that when I first met this person they were with a “friend” and the physical attraction was there. But I knew very little of them. So like a shiny toy. I wanted. But knew I could not have. So I disregarded. Which at the time seemed to have been in the best interest. But later that year, I became more and more intrested in trying the toy out.. I become more closer to this person. Cause of an interesting turn of event. This was on a trip back east. Meanwhile I live in Kamloops for school. But this then becomes the challenge of situation. I like challenge but hate the fact I lose control over them, the situation, and myself. Because for the past 6 month’s lets just say for I’ve not been able to remain exact times. The nights I send alone I urn for them and the morning I wake up I’m alone with an empty feeling. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not like there has not been people I’ve come in contact. But this is different cause well those people matter. But there is just something more mysterious I like about this person. They make it almost fascinating to see how much I can get. Mentally, physically, emotionally.

ARGH! – I wish I could drop a lot of my life and re-arrange things to make this a lot easier.

That would be just the type of control I want. But I know currently I don’t have. It bothers me I cant control this situation a bit more or have a stronger influence in the situation. As discussed with Alyssa. I’ve got to become more understanding of other’s emotional and personal respective choices. And not to take the advantage of the situation. By controlling them, the situation, the influences and the way I influence things.

Another thing that seems to be a issue is the fact that Counselor Kyle comes out often. Now then it has ever. And this could be a bed thing. It’s really become one of those huge challenges for me not to allow for this to happen. I am so used to helping others out that when it comes to relationships I seek out those who I can influence and who I can have control over. With this person I am talking about. I think it bothers me the fact I cant control or the fact that I’ve not been in their head. And it drive me wild with a whole array of emotions. And I know that’s what has me so bothered by how or why I’m so much attracted to this person or situation.

This has to be the most screwed up thing for me. I’ve become the counseled.. the shoe is now on the other foot.

For all those avid readers out there. In 2 weeks I fly away from school and sad part is this summer I will not be online as often as you all wish I will be because I wont be taking my computer with me. Which has begun myself to forcing the saving of a laptop. Yes I also plan on working a lot this summer. Also spending time with those who I have not seen in almost 4-5 years, which has been filled with education and learning to adapt to reality of University life. Which I will miss so dearly. But I figure I need to make money to spend it and I need to learn how to live and work in the real life of social – Canada/world so this is the summer of Employment. My goal is to gain as much experience as possible. Meet people in my respected field. Learn some new things and get out there and become a face of the community. instead of this whole campus living which I’ve been accustom to for the past 4 years.

I would like to thank the following people for their great help for the housing/support/job help

Christiano – you’re da bomb right now cause you are helping me with the bar job. And for that it makes a huge difference. Cause this is my dream.

Matt – for helping me with the connection to Starbuck. Let's hope I get that as my summer p-t job. Something to kill time between other things and keeping me out of trouble.

Jersey – for allowing me to cook and clean for you while I crash at your place. For the beginning.

I wont be online cause I will be UBER busy I hope in the city.

My final exam is coming up and I’ve become a freak head. Oh this should be interesting to see this summer.

But I will be keeping the Kamloops Cell number… I could not think I would find a sweeter number for next year. So it wont be worth getting rid of it. I will be taking TXT messages from people. And if you are local I would be calling you back or e-mail you later that week or the next time I find time and energy to type out an e-mail.

why @ 5am i had to wake up?

2005-04-14T05:35:00.000-07:00

Okay, let’s start off by stating even though a lot of you think you know that I am a charming person. I do have a dark side to this warm Care bear exterior. My life as sad as it seems has almost felt like it has plateau to a halt at university. Where to go now? Those who say the workforce, you have got to be out of your mind. Others say more schooling. Either way life seems nothing but a grim view of how reality bites. I was sleeping but something scary woke me up from the sleep as if I were to be sick. An I worrying too much that I might cause myself to achieve un-happy endings or is this the best I can do? This also a horribly bad time to start re-think my career through once again. I am rather intrested in Psychology & Sexology.

I feel somewhat at a loss of ideas, and not ready to re-move myself to another place. I think I want to remain where I am for another few years and then potentially do it all over again. A new university and another degree later (another 4ok$ in the hole) obtain another degree which will as it seems get me one more wall covering. But wont make me any smarter then some dill weed coming out of graduate school with their Psy.D, Ph.D, or MD. I will only have a lonely M.A in Psyc/Sex. Grr it seems that the more you read the more you regret. well thanks to many years of educating myself I have developed this great talent to over-analyze my life. And just how wonderful it has become. Sad enough I see nothing but a blank future. This is not to say I have no future. But to say I don’t know where I will end up or of I will end up somewhere, where I want to be.

I’m hoping in the future I can settled down, with the right person. We can either procreate or adopt. And enjoy what the world has offered to us. Where is the question. Where is this person that shall forever change me to be a better person to achieve me optimal success. For now I don not know nor am I overly concerned about it. As I am going with the flow that life has to offer. Like a piece of sand in the ocean. Wherever life takes me I shall go. Whatever happens, happens for a reason and the sadness and joys that I encounter. Well that’s all learning curves I need for the future of happiness I plan on obtaining.

Side note. None of my blogs/enteries are designed for grammatical or spelling corrections. These are designed to be quick random thoughts that spurt out. So take then as they are posted. If I feel the sudden urge to spell my words correctly then you get luck if not then sorry to say, but deal with it. Life’s not handed to us all on silver platters. Please don’t expect anything perfect from me. I’m still human and I still make a significant amount of mistakes.

ah things are messed

2005-04-11T00:29:00.000-07:00

i creep myself out at times

finally things go well for me and i fuck it up by picking the wrong place... you all should just tell me what to do .this works best for me... then i cant get angry at myself
so it's the last freaken month of school and ofcourse i meet some... smart, attractive and actually is alot alike to my style. this is hard to match.
soft and quiet and rought and kinky on the inside. great minds think alike. dang. well this should be intresting in the next month to see how long it lasts. we are almost alot alike and we have the same style of thoughts... dirty or direct.

okay so i want to say i am staying Vancouver or Bc for the summer but it look like i got a job @ starbucks College&yonge and a bar on yonge. so i might be busy.

oh yeah msn is my new fluster, who's not been behaving for me... yah piss me off..

Me Baby.. Me!

2005-04-05T12:54:00.000-07:00

1.What is your full name: Kyle L.K. N-K.

2. What colour pants are you wearing now: this would require me to have pants on. so skin-toned

3. What are you listening to right now: Cho all the way!

4. When is your birthday: June 17th

5. What was the last thing you ate: soup, bun, Oj all from The terrace

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Rich Blue

7. How is the weather right now? mild, although it's like this all the time. so it's nice. loving BC

8. Last person you talked to on the phone: Aaron, at Jacks place

9. The first thing you notice about a guy/girl: Physical Attributes

10. Do you like the person who sent this to you? yeah she is Awsome known for years trusted by good taste

11. How are you today: underwhelmed

12. Favorite hot drink: Double-Venti-Chantico

13. Favorite alcoholic drink: Vodka... anything vodka

14. Favorite Sport: football

15. Hair color: brown

16. Eye Color: brown

17. Do you wear contacts: nope

18. Siblings: sooo many!

19. Favorite month: May, summer begins

20. Favorite foods: Toast with PB&J

21. Last movie watched: Death To Smoochie

22. Favorite day of the year: June 21st. Summer officially begins

23. Are you too shy to ask someone out: um most times i am... until i am not shy.

24. Summer or winter: both

25. Hugs or Kisses: both are good for you. they relase happy chemicals into my body. Hugging is so much better for you though

26. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocoalte

27. Do you want your friends to write back: who cares!

28. Who is most likely to respond: noone b/c this being publicly posted

29: Who is least likely to respond: Everyone who loves me!

30. What's under your bed: The ground... yea!!! Hippieland rock!

31. What books are you reading: HP-GOF, Da Vinci Code, Hush

32. What's on your mouse pad?:the floor

33. Favorite board game?: monopoly all the way!

34. What did you do last night: Chilled with the chicks, in a jeep @ the recycling site.

35. Favorite Smells: D&G, Swiss, and Tommy.

36. Can you touch your nose with your tounge?: if i tried

37. What inspires you today: My Music...

38. plain or salted popcorn: regular, or which over comes out of my microwave

39. Favorite Flower: plastic, i can keep the longer and they dont die

40. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?: damn I'm so hard... and i look the best i can for the day!

Most Recently....

2005-04-03T19:46:00.000-07:00

Alright so as of March 19th, I've been uber loaded with nothig serious other then school which has now been my entire life plan. to just finish it before death.
i woke up with a cough... damn these residents who cant keep their germs to themselves..
i guess i too am also help responcible for my own actions. i have been busy both n and off campus with "meeting people"

so this week i have met this new person named aaron, who is friends with Khym, Pirate, Jack, and tori
we ended up just chilling in a jeep in Lac Le Jeun. just outside of Kamloops. they have funny things that catch cows when the escape from the farms. it was fun to see the stars as well. last night was amazing, with friends and knowing i now have transformed into a BC Officially, when 2c is really cold... brr. the weather has been amazing. and fun. the rain has not hit tonight yet. although i faith it will..

school is almost over 2 more weeks one paper and 5 exams left and then i'm free for the summer and after much debate with myself i have picked toronto and the bars there my employment for the summer.... oh yeah and Starbucks. yea, i know such a westcoast thing.
well i must wonder away for a bit again. once again if you have any question or concerns please call me... or Txt me i am always up for a talk...
except for certain Frat board members

little bit of updates

2005-03-19T04:01:00.000-08:00

alright i figure alot of you dont know whats the heck i have been up to. so here is a bit of a run down.
I'm Running for Resident Advisor. this would mean i would be working for more hours in the RA area then i was already doing and have more respoibilities then already on residence. as well i run the Web-forum . soo keeping that busy and flowing is always a fun task.
I've become a bit more social in all aspects. meaning i have been caught around campus with someone, other then my research partner. not nothing is super-serious just means that i have meet some more people who enturn have helped me pen my eyes a bit more to relationship things.

My MSN fans. meaning anyone who is on MSN list and knows about the entire Blocking thing. alright this would be the run down of the blocking. I've been trying my best to not get to wrapped up in the Drama back east. as i have already been a current subscriber. as well an active participant. but i know i need to begin looking at my life in the views of... am i going back to Ontario because of someone or am i going back because i want to become educated or work there. school for me has been a long task that has required alot of my time and efford and i am in need of a mental break that is why i have been looking for a employent in the related field of study... with the lack of emloyment i have been having to loook elsewhere. maining in other urban centre's which i guess some become un-able to accept.

One of my post's was removed based on it was placed there for you... a certain person whome i assume wont check this anymore. cause well i would guess we will no longer be in assosiation with past that last stage of things.

well otherthan that tomorrow/today is pancake breakfast day and next weekend i am back in Vancouver to se family and work on some things like term papers.
i need to rest i have not done a proper nights res in oh.... gosh knows. a week before reading break.

bye bye drama..... Hello TRU-Loops!

where has time gone?

2005-03-14T10:02:00.000-08:00

alright MSN people...
grr i've been away from the room more often lately, the Theater students keep me busy.
which is not always bad i like it pus it's helping me focs on studyig it seems odd but i know for me to have this much fun i need to balance out the amount of studying as well to do well in school. this was the edge i needed. nice young people with alot of great motivation.
so here is the run down of the new list of friends.
Pirate: she is a confused but intresting ticklish friend.
Jack: a.k.a Jaq-e , Fine arts major. she has chem with me so we make fun of JP our proff alot he is crazy. which is one of the fave past times. she alwas has people at herp lace. (lives 2 floors down)
Tori: she is an anime freak. but she is fun and dark. i like it dark. she has alot of fun when we drag her out. well thats what i get from it.
then there is Khym & Jesse, both are arts guys but really intresting. we dont see them as much which is good in some cases. (alright... gigiddy gigidd) but when we have a w/end party one or sometimes both end up visiting us in dorms.
okay so my RA interview is today, and in the past few days i sorta overloaded the room with eople. not knowingly either. well there was 1 too many people in my room. which i thought would have been okay, but i guess RA's do have down time... so... now i dont know if i will get RA. how stupid of me. dammit. so tonight we will have to see how this goes.
i would have expected one for load music. but that was not the case.
it was a verbal but i know i should have had more control over it. as well as the RA "off-duty"
school is doing better now that i have reasons to actually spend time with people.
the security said i would make a great RA too and he was sorry he had to write me up.

i'm going to pass chem even if i dont write my last exam. with a min of 66% but i will write it to get higher. i like JP he rocks.... and the exam should be good. yay cause he is dedicated a section of the class for sexology stuff... yay!!!
i need to do well in all my classes this term. and by that i mean pass them all with a great mark. stats i have been studying off and on about for a while. i want to do well on this exam.

this weekened was fun and alot of crazy partying. but i still miss my boo. who is back in london. right now we are still just talking but i miss the great conversations and the way i feel when i see boo online. and the anticipation of a sweet conversation. i cant tell why this just feels amazing or why i get all anxious. it's fun and exciting. if you could only see the giant grin on my face and feel the butterlfies i have right now. you would know just how much boo makes me feel. i like day dreaming while on the lawn staring into the sky wishful hopes to see what will become of this fantasy, if it will amount to something. wish, hopes, anticipation to get off the plane and have one of those sappy airport/bus depot scene of hugging and kissing. replays in my mind and some sad love song. gosh i need to keep my mind current.
okay so stats exam in a few hours. Boo sorry...
gtg and read a bit more and set notes together.

pictures might be up soo ove this wild parties.
ttyl

A long awaited post

2005-03-01T16:52:00.000-08:00

wow, its been a while since the last post.
i must have had that mellow of a vacation from everything/one stressful.
well let's recap these entire past few weeks.

alright wrote a crazy amount of exams well not really but enjoyed the sluglike week i planned.
flights, sights and people were all fantastic. it was the break i needed.
nothing to well palnned out that i should have spent a bit more time with a more special person. and then i would not of forgoten to say good bye to another rather important friend as well.

flights. all went well until the end when the fog in vancouver... yes vancouver foggy. cause the delay. suprising. the seating was a bit stupid but i know now that i can check in upto 12 hours prior to departure online thanks to Aircanada and the new formats they now have in Express checking in.
got to love technology. how impressive, just how easy it is not to go from home to plane. this just means alot more is possible when i do fly next time.

the sights i got to see where beatiful just seeing how wintery it tends to get and he weather comparison, brrr it was bloody cold back there. going from shorts to alot of clothes man that sucked big time.
i got to spend some time with boo. which was a bit f a highlight for me. i was content. i just think i should have stayed another night just to spend a bit more time.
Erin, Amanda, JC, Has, Tim, Mark, and Mike were all a pleasure i love them to bits they truely make for the best friends. Erin had compiled a rather large amounts of pitures of us from over all the time we had together. and now i can see just how much fun i do have with civilized humans. alot less drama involve i the smart group for sure. Finally a group of friends who dont derive the friends off drama. we each have our own drama and we all help out to make the drama seem alot less stupid and make life just so much easier., what the hell else are true friends supposed to do.
but my time in Toronto was nice got to spend time with an old friend of mine and some other friends Paul and i spent the entire day just shooting the shit and getting back on track with the healthy life we had. i got to see his new place. which is sooo much better the living with his grany. .
Family wise i finally heard back from my mother. she is doing well and happy as heck which is a good sign. i missed my bro and my sister was uber busy to deal with me and my mellow state i was in. i love her soo much for being such a great person and supportive. and my brother is a great guy. i just wish for him to stabilize his life a it more. hopefully with the move away from Lonelyville he will. he has alot of smarts but has to narrow down that right path which makes him who he is.
soccer .... Oi.... i wish i could of made it up for the tournament. we came in 2nd place.... yay us!
i feel bad for letting my team down and missing the final game. but free laundry... that and getting to spend time with my Grandmother. who i see slowly sliping away. but uicker since the last time. luckly my bro finalluy came back to see her. i know she is fine but i know she missed him and missed seeing the grandchildren.
i'm slowly run out of energy to think of how to express other emotions.
although i have a new appreciation for my professors. a day in the shoes of professors. yikes it's sure a tough job and alot of great things you like. others dont tend to want to know, how sad i love sex & Sexuality and i hope to go into the teaching profession. but after that i know i want to remain on the other end just for a bit more. i know i can love it more in the future too. i am rethinking becoming a psychological professor and just developing a course in sex and sexuality for schools in the early years of education. this might not go soo well but i know it's needed to make for a more possitive outlook on relationships. as well i now have a greater understanding of relationships and hopefully this will follow through into my past and present relationships.

alright end of thoughts i need more coffee....
mmm the love for coffee will never end. and coffee will always love me... the maker might never!

Hyper or just plain CRAZY

2005-02-13T20:04:00.000-08:00

i cant tell anymore today has been such a positive day i dont know why i just feel soo good.
i miss alot of people. but i know i will see them in time.

i was able to rest and the web-forum is blasting into space. we just need more people on it

hey mr. DJ put a record on i wanna dance with my baby.

wow i may require some time to chill with someone at some point.

hmm soundsl ike a good plan, also i told myself no more lending out cash to people. they are shady and un-trustworthy unless i know them really well.

tomorrow is the poster sale and i want to get some funny one's this time around.
meow meow meow

hmm how to get these keys to work in my advantage
bblater

Sunday mornings

2005-02-13T11:33:00.000-08:00

i think these mornings are only fun for thoes who attend church or like to read in peace. i was up and awake by 9am and then got some readings done until someone in the quad woke up. yup i heard them.

a little update.

Still single. yeah that sucks
went to this amazing party hosted by the tourism faculty. down in the old courthouse now International hostel. Great DJ's and actual party scene, this event has brought e to understand Cat my RA a bit ore and developed a stronger bond between us. mmm yummie.
i found a really cheap piercer in Kamloops. so this just means more things can get taken care of.
as well i stopped by the AIDS Society of Kamloops to go for my bi-annual testing. where they gave me a box (144) of condoms. to hand out in dorms. which i soooo will. i'm flustered that the owner does not want to supply condoms for the residentsw. or even a condom dispencer. what a dumb religious person.
all my bus tickets have been picked up and my flights are all booked too.. yay. it's coming soo close this trip back
i think i will be busy with seeing friedns and TAing for steph we will have to see thought, I've made a promise to JC that i will help paint. which i plan to stick to. in return BEER!!! gotta love Students one(of many) tracked minds. Tail & Beer! ha ha ha
oh stripping contest on campus. yeah i came in second although i dont know if i already posted for that. if not. here was the deal i was in 1st place until some dill-weed had his way. oh well #2 in that contest was still not that bad.

This week will be fun:
monday is the day we check out the marks from research methods and sexuality exams.
Thursday is my friends Kristi's b-day so we are going ot get her drunk off her rocker. ha ha ha then i will come home pack my bags for my trip which i leave Kamloops Friday @ 4:30 arrive into Vancouver @9 then saturday off to London! yay, lets hope this trip is a bit more entertaining with less to do no more bookings!!!
well off to eat!

2005-02-07T22:00:00.000-08:00

Kyle

what a slump

2005-02-07T16:39:00.000-08:00

Alright so now everyone i know has thier own blog. this is awsome now we can help each other out with what ever bothers them this rox. and I would like to thank JC for getting me hooked to this.

today i actually had an alright day nothing too stupid has bothered me yet.
currently i am making my lunch @ 4:45pm. hmm this should make for an intresting lunch
Curried veggies!!! mm i like veggies they make me alot happier.

so school is becoming a bit troublesome but i am going to deal with it to my best ability.
i've been drinking less and less coffee as time goes by. i miss alot of my friends once in a while but knowing we can communicate is the best. i know when i need them they are there. as i am for the as well.
so the applications are in for RA.
Gill and I are running for the same position. this would be intresting to see who ends up RA for next year
i hope for the best and prepare for theworst. it's the easiest way to prepare for failure instead of allowing it to creep up and scare ya!
last night's soccer game went alright we won one and lost the other one. once again we payed the Varsity team. but this time we had them figured out so we had the upper hand!

relationships have been on the low side of my life but i am filling up that time of thinking of someone to spend my nights with studying and research. this should be a better term for me.
i like alot of my classes this term and i've actually been good and attended all of them.

thefun thinks i used to enjoy doing like partying i find so lame. like getting too drunk that you cant recall the evening. well i only had one of those this year so far.
the latin party seemed to suck until the strip contect. which i eneded up coming in 2nd place... yeah me stripping is not a view alotof people want to see but i did it!
2nd place is alot better then last. there were only 9 other contestants. so i think i did rather good.

i have a picture but not willing to post it here yet.

for my family. this should be the year we actually get to see eachother i know we all miss the chance to fight in person but this year seems promising. i like to see you all this year. or if not in person just a simple call to know you are still alive and doing well.

essays are low on the priority this year only got one so i want to make the best of it. Research methods. this seems like such a crap course. but the class is amazing i love it. full of exciting discussions and the most intresting prof @ TRU-UCC
Dennise Weisgerberg. she is totaly the best i have had in ages!!!!! in Psych that is!
well this is the afternoon and i am going to nibble on this veggie thing the i should hit the books for the remaining hours to study for Psych-Sex and Psych-Research exams coming up this week.
yay me!!!

well enjoy

lost and alone

2005-02-04T01:15:00.000-08:00

yup it seems this might be one of those sad ones i write too

okay its offical i am sad and alone. i miss my ex but most off i miss the bio-chemical response you get when you are holding eachother in your arms. as i wonder why i have not yet moved on i think its funny i think i might of thought that we would have been great together. but that was shattered when i left London and came to Kamloops and it was stated they could not handle the LDR thing.as if i would be the one to cheat? who knows.
I know i said this a million times, this town blows.
the school is getting better as i make more and more friends
*sigh*
for those of you who know me well enough. Breakfast at Tiffany's is one of my most adored songs. well it's on repeat as i write this blog. thanks to my most indearing(sp) friend Erin!!!!!!

I love this song, as it reminds me of being in Embassy in London watching Tom sing and chilling with Erin and Floppy. floppy is a different situation. not going there. but Erin sang so beautifully.
this song can help either make my night hyper, happy or sad. tonight it has me in my mellow mood and i hope this cheers me up. i could sit here listening to it a million times and never get bored of it. my roomates on the other hand must detest this song by now.

I have done a nice thing in the last few days.
My brother may hate me and i may not like him at times. but for the simple fact he is like my twin i love him. i was nice and got him a ticket with my dad to come back to Vancouver for a short bit. he has not had the oppertunity to come back in a long time
hopefully he has a grand time as i know i will when i am back in toronto.
I've applied for a job back in the big city but i would rather work in London as i am slightly developing feelings for someone there. this is not conclusive i know the distance, it would/could be the challenge. but i know that if you want something to work. you need to put efford into it. thus i am going to see how things go.

right now i think some of my flusterment has been released. yes that is not a word but i know you understood what i ment.
i've got a Chem Exam in the morning. i hope i can do as good as i have been doing on all the assignents. if not i will be mighty mad at myself.
I HATE MC Exams
i hope he is less judgemental on the MC as i know he will be! damn John Parks.
he's my insane chem Prof
then i got this extreme Hyper Social Psych prof who is neat cause she relates alot of the issues to her Crazy life and close connections.
My Sex Psych & research Methods Prof. i am slowly wondering if she is intrested in me in a more then prof-student sort of way. hmm she is fun though i like talking with her.
then there is Mean and hard to understand Stats... with Roberts... He flares his arms around and dose odd guestures. we all hate him... and HATE i mean we hate. so strongly he is not teaching us anything
even the other Psychology Profs think he's a bit odd. but nothing to push him over the sane-insane line... boooo to that

as a side note
Boo: i hope you had a fantastic night. sorry i missed holding a conversation with you. i just had ppl in my room watching SCRUBS

OH!!!! everyone who watched the show agree i am alot like Dr. Cox, we both are direct and rather enjoy seeing people struggle. it's our enjoyment for the day. tee hee hee
could it be a level of Narssistism? is this an actual word? prolly not! oh well. nighty night all sleep well and remeber that bed-bugs are real and dont you forget that!!!!
tomorrow i should be going for my HIV&STD testing. let us cross the fingers.

Life with out a heart

2005-01-27T13:41:00.000-08:00

The roughest thing i had to do. got taken care of.
I made the choice to remove "person" from MSN and from contacts. i've come to realize things are not to work out. there is no communication unless they wanted something it seems.
who knows i might be able to sleep now. these past few weeks coming back to Kamloops has not been the best for me. other then the fact that i got a roommate who is driving me loonie. that the stress of the summer job search. and not knowing where i will end up, not knowing if i will ever meet someone as oddly-wonderful as "person"? this is been never ending struggle for myself.
lets all hope for the best i think i need to realize that life is based on challenges and we all must overcome these challenges to achieve what would be interperted asthe perfect life. you give a little away and get a little in return
like stated. if you release it. and it comes back, it's yours to keep forever.
sad rather but i understand what the context means.
being in class and really learning how to deal with people with the same issues. its like a life shocker. "holy i am sooo that person i dont want to be" why do ex's put us into that?

I wonder if i will end up like Dr.Cox. hes this doctor on SCRUBS. one of the funniest shows i've watched in ages. other then family guy or sex in the city.
ha ha ha
Stewie and Samantha oh those crazy people they are.

but Dr.Cox seems like this Lifeless jerk who states what is on his mind not fearing to hear what he expects to be a comeback but nothing but banter. as he comes back with some form if witty charm. ah so fun to watch and the entertaining value on this show was funny its almost like ER but with a younger twist.

it reminds me why i like tv. instead of this crappy Reality TV shit you see all the time. i dont care who can survive. the true task is surviving in the big city with children and a McJob. and going to school at the same time. now that i will watch to see how stressed the people get. that is the true task of endurance not cheese.

on a good note for my solo-reader
i am applying for FT Resident Advisor. lets see if i get it. if some crack head who is not social and has nothing to offer to Rez gets the position (in my building). i will flip out. i'm sick of organizing events that seems to actually have intrest. involving more then for my own person pleasure. like oh Krappy-o-key. and ddr. as much as it is fun i dont like to play that and i would rather see people get out of Dorms area and venture into Reality. like the real Kamloops and meet other people in dorms instead of just their jailcell!
grrr
well that is my somewhat update.
P.S. "person" i still care for you. but until you're ready. i have to make my life benift my health and my heart. i cant let this drag me down and drag my GPA down with it. being upfront and honest about feeling and possible potential would have made this less harsh. but i still keep a positive thought about you and hope then things might change. but until then i have to do this for myself.

2005-01-25T23:24:00.000-08:00

On-Campus housing (student Residence)

2005-01-23T21:28:00.000-08:00

Alright... Giggidy Giggidy

2005-01-23T21:27:00.000-08:00

Lindsay & I

2005-01-23T21:26:00.000-08:00

Jenny & I

2005-01-23T21:25:00.000-08:00

Just the Guys!

2005-01-23T21:24:00.000-08:00

Nurse's Ball - Me,Lindsay,Jenny

2005-01-22T13:47:00.000-08:00

Baby think twice
bab this is serious
are you thinking about you or us.
baby
look back before you leave my life.
besure before you close that door

Celine Dion
Think Twice.

this was for you.

who to love more

2005-01-22T01:31:00.000-08:00

over the past few weeks i've been battling myself to figure out who or what i really want to be. am i in school because this is what i need to do to progress into a mature life. or how i can fit this mold that is expected of mysef.
the most rewarding thing i think i have done is nothing at all.
not that its been all nothing. but that i have put myself behind others. i support others before i can support myself.
Alyssa, stated to me this idea that if i cant help others out. there is no way i can help myself. well i think she is right.
for almost majority of life, i have been there for everyone i know. and i know they are there too. but without me helping them i dont know what to do with myself.
with that in mind. i moved over thousands of miles away, to find myself and to pick out what it is that makes me happy and truely satisfied.

i reflect back at a point, when one the phone with someone i told them I love them. this idea has been a very high level of emotions for me. for the past few days while it disrupts my studying. i cant help wonder. was it the right thing to say. and i wonder if they feel to the same level i feel back? this is a question that i dont think i can answer nore do i think that person can answer.
i just watched "little black book" i rather enjoyed it. but it has me wondering. is my life like that. so complex that it needs to be vied through a television to be understood. mocked or analysised.
what i think i have been doing is over analysing myself. not allowing myself to enojy what i had. and realize that when the right moment comes i will eventually have that person by my side. my sleepness nights i dont want to fill with meaningless sex or even worse ruin another live.
the problem right now is i know i could be ready to settle with just one person i know what i have that i can offer and i know i have to come clean at some point and smarten up and discuss some hidden emotions.
my mind is working too quicly for my typing. so i will begin by saying this.
from this moment on. school is important. and i know m=how much alot of people would love to see me finish. but i am seriously considering taking a break, and maybe find somone who can appreciate what i have to offer. this emotional emptiness i feel right now. is eating away at me. and i just wish i could figure out just what i can do to help myself. i know i iwll in time and i hope i find what i am looking for. (sad to hear eh?) but on the bright note. the one Love i have experienced has only made me realize that no matter the way life plays, and how horrible the situation you could be placed into. you can still bounce back with a smile and look forward to a brigt future. filled with love, and the chance to enjoy it with someone.

I miss all my Family and All my Friends.
i just want you all to know that no matter what you all hold a piece of my heart.
and i hope you never let go. cause there is still more to come. I promise you this.

2005-01-21T10:16:00.000-08:00

Morpheus

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new forum created for OCH

2005-01-18T08:57:00.000-08:00

welll i know i need to update this more frequantly. but i have been insanely busy with school and other commitments. school and non-school related.

some odd things occured this week that i need to wort out with a few people.
i wish more people would vocalize thier i deas and thoughts. i think the world would be more forward and less boring.

so it's been showing for a while here. boo to this.
last night to celebrate this wonderful occassion of the release of the forum. we drank a bit.
not hung over so this ia good sign.

On-Campus Housing Forum

here it is. let me know what you think it's a bit cheesey right ow but will liven up over time. with the right promotion.
well outties i go

I miss civilization

Sucky Suck Sucks

2005-01-10T22:22:00.000-08:00

alright its offical. my life bites

first day back and i got the crapiest homework and my Stats partners are alright but i wish they understood i had other classes.
grrr

i've been chatting with then cutie, but who knows what will come of this.

oh and to make my life worse they are holding my scholarship cheque so tomorrow i will talk tothe school about this so what i failed a bit. i am willing to go on probation ofr that. i dont mind. i mean i have paid for classes this term but i need money to survive

right now i sit here thinking after school what will i end up doing. working for a school i hope i am going back to look fora summer job. if un-sucessfull than back to BC come. i mean i owuld love to find even just an average job or if some friends could help out with Bar jobs would be great too .
i want something that will keepmy occupied for just enough tie to keep me out of trouble but not too many hours will want to kill myself.

want to also put my eduaction to good use. i kno Psychology is good in any field but i want towork with youth and trobled children.

well back to the convo with J and back to Stats
i love Stats.... grrr

heading back...

2005-01-07T15:02:00.000-08:00

Vancouver is over. All this snow and chilly weather is preparing me for the worst of BC I guess. its snowing and chilly in Kamloops right now from what I hear. Foresure something I dont look to farward to alot. But this should be a nice difference from London.

Time with the ex was splended. I think things are going to be alright between us, as known the breakup has been long. But I guess there is still feelings lingering there(mostly on my part). Who knows what will become of this entire situation. For now I hope for the best but prepare for more heartache. Being friends has proven to me that we still can communicate.
Will anyone ever live up to this whole new level of expectation? or have the ability to match up? I've stopped holding my breath, I keep meeting what I would view as perfect partners. But when I actually meet the real them (also after a Personal Psych-Analysis) I tend to find a fault or two about them. Thats where this ex differes from the rest. You see I've become challanged. Something I find is far more attractive and more disirable(they may not think they have this ability). Someone who thinks so little of themself, I find more attractive then thoes who are more self assure of their achievements and asperations. It makes no sense to me!
If I cant find "the one" I wont die un-happy though I will have some regret. Thinking I have let that person out of my life. Possibly forever.

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On a much happier note.

I got another ticket to come back to Toronto and London.
this time a less formal trip and less structure will be involve. (I can see your grin)

My appologies to thoes i did not get the chance to see, as well as thoes who i wanted to see and missed due to weather and other expected conflicts.

my flight in = Feb 19th into YYZ (Toronto)
my flight out = Feb 26th from YYZ (Toronto)

The expectation is that:

Dave has good news about jobs.
I find a summer job bringing me back to the 416/905 or to the 519 (know of a great place hiring drop me a line or drop my name and contact to this person(s) in charged)
things work out that i can spend more time with my sister and brother
and to have some nice actual VACATION!

i need to relax and stop thinking about life too seriously. as most have pointed out i have simmered off from the party scene and became a bit more serious about myself. i also lost some respect from a bunch of you for life choices i had to make. and for that. i'm sorry i wish things were a bit different.

oh those with Bell Mobility Cell Phones. we can keep in touch a bit more. as my plan with BM is Free Bell-Bell **Nation Wide**. i'm so excited. i know some of you have other plans so i iwll try to keep it to a min.

well away i must go.
I miss you and i cant wait to see you.

XOXO
Kyle

Vancouver or Bust?!

2004-12-29T13:18:00.000-08:00

ah the thoughts of weddings make me shiver.

Dave, my best friend who we thought to be the first married. well it does not look like this. my dollar is on other couples before his. hes a great friends, but i cant see him settled down. let alone with anyone but himself. dont get me wrong him and his partner are happy together. for what ever that's worth. but the thought of him actually going forth with it. well lets call this a little push in the right direction.
As for me. will i ever meet the one true love. this has got to be the eternal struggle for me. settling on just one person would be wonderful. but would someone so wonderful want to settle with a super busy person like myself? if i do meet this person. who's to say they will like me... or better yet why should i think i am so lucky as to finally meet them. and recognizing that i seem to be theo ne who either over analysis my own relationships i may have met the right one. but with out knowing it. aloowed forthe distance to drift us apart.

on a happier note. I'm back in BC.
my time spent in Ontario was enjoyable and it helped me realize i did make the right move and came back to my roots of Vancouver. Toronto i find as a lovely place but not place for me. i need to know others around me are having a much better life than myself. instead when i go to Toronto i figure out that ever one is more stressed, and over whelmed with emotional detachment. thinking it's the place for me, would be an undersight to my own happiness. this trip has put me back into the idea that i need to re-establish my life in Vancouver by makeing new friends and allowing my other friend's to enjoy what they have become. it sure seems some of them have done a great, in their own personal development.

I made one really neat friend though back East. and i hope things work out that i get the oppertunity to meet up with them on a more sober instance. as i hope this would work out. if not than i am perfectly happy knowing that they would make a great friend.

the delay on my updates has been due to the lact ov internet time i have had. either because of the intensity of the holiday or the insanity i lead.

I MISS EVERYONE soo much

my mother who is still in Perth. - i hope things are going well for her. hopefully she is alright. no one has heard from her in ages. which makes me a bit concerned. due to weather and the timing.

Justin, Erin, Has, Rich,Tim and everyone back in london - thanks for allowing me to have such a wonderful time back each moment we had form the summer was relived through such a great weekend spent with all of you.

seeing my family sure was exciting as well. during the time i spent with my brother living with him. he drove me nutz. but seeing him in small batches has made me only realize just how cool of a guy he can be when he trys.
my sister is wonderful i missed her alot. sometimes i felt like we were the only two sane people in the family but when we talked i was reconfirmed. yet i too had an insane side and i like to use it often.

this holiday has been great even thoguth it's been short. i cant wait to get back to classes though i'm some what excited for the new term. new teachers and new lectures. and all the neat information i shall be aquiring.
i have no MSN where i am in Vancouver so i wont be on it until i'm back in Da-Loopz but hopefully everyone can shoot me off e-mails and call my new cell. if you need the number call me at the vancouver house or the kamloops house. both locations someone can help you out there.

well signing off to see what else life has to offer to me

Love you all Always.
Kyle

Here in London

2004-12-20T10:16:00.000-08:00

Having a blast. today i think i should just replace the time spent with a friend (who has not had had the time) to spend a day with myself. this is a much needed personal time. getting to know myself a bit better. (i know stupid when you already know myself)

so i went out to the bar. had a blast. miss this bloody town so freaken much. but it has some un-pleasent memories i wish to forget about. i've become a stronger person living on my own now. even thought i missed Justin, Erin, Timmy, Jason, Mat, and the few others i did get to see which was amazing. Erin & I had some of the greatest talks which made this just one the best times together, getting to see Amanda (Erin's Sister) was freaken awsome. meeting Marc was wonderful and making a new friend... Josh, Marc, and thoes living in the loft this year.
Spent some good quality time with an old friends Stephen talking about the old days, and all the exciting circle of friends we have back in the T-dot.

I think its about time i face reality. the Single Life is not as bad as it seems. This weekend i had to give up on the thought of something rebuilding. the hope and dreams have officially been shattered but i've become more vibrant then ever. also fininding out who my true friends are back here.

so now i got this new cell i can MSN ppl. thisis very exciting. but the cost might bite me in the bum. well we will have to see howthis goes. i suredid hasvea great last few days in Kamloops. i mean it's not asbad as it has been thanks to Al. for showing me this place is not soo bad.

tomorrow i hit toronto. this itself is thelast stop in this tour of mine.
the question would it beworth it to comeback so soon? i havesome great friends, but they have reading week the same time as i do. if i get the job than i'm back if not. then i might just do somework in Vancouver or go on an actual time away from people retreat. i need to figure out a few things... we will have to see how things go.

well i'm off for now want to shave and shower. and than once drie and warm go for a walk to UCC for Timmy Ho's...maybe? teah. $2 cafemoca, and fritter.
mmm alright. peace out

Over it all

2004-12-16T02:53:00.000-08:00

alright so alot of over things.

yeah i sort of got fresh with a neighbor. but not that it was a bad thing. we were drunk and well.
she's moving back to Holland... got her e-mail so now we can stay in touch. this is awsome making friends from all over the golbe. this means i have places to visit and to travel to.

speaking of travels. yeah i'm all packed and ready for the trip back east to see family and friends and to conduct some things in regards of research. this shall be intresting. it's 3:am and i have to be out of my suite @ 4:30 to make it to the airport in time. Kamloops to Vancouver, then Calgary, than toronto. alot of lights for one day a total of 12 hours of travel and then once in the city will see my sister. i miss her so much, friday off to london for the remainder of my schedule.

hopefully this is not insane that i will need a vacation from.

and i got a new Cell phone so now. this means a new number to remember. please ask for it.

All my exams are done
PoliSci: yeah if it was out=r exams he gave us we could have donw it. plus being 15 minutes late to the exam... setting a great example for us students.

Psych: easy as pie. i knewalot of it and most related to the research project i am currently working one.

English: greatest acomplishment. yes i achieved a B... socked. i know mysle i was shocked but i will make it on to make other great achievments.

Math: the exam was Perfect. it was as hard as i expected but yet again.. teachers college. is sure a hard job and i have a new love for math and a new respect ofr teachers. as they know soo much.

and the last one was FRENCH.... oh yeah the exam that neded alot ot prepare but was not as bad as i expected. it was easier actually all i need is a passing in this class hopefully Yves liked my performance.

term one down and excited to begin another wonderful term @ TRU/UCC
see you all in the next few weeks

this term is almost over

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nearing the end of term do i regrete coming to Kamloops for school?

hard question to ask and answer. i mean i've met soo many nice people from all over BC and all over he globe. each and everyone i mey has there strengths and i enjoy that about them i mean the lst month reall has bee na friendly reminder of what i could be in for next term. this is great. socializing off campus a bit more is on the list of things to do i rather enjoy Rez for living and for meeting peope. but now i think its also about time i met some people from off campus.

Dating in Kamloops?

pft. as if.
i ean i wish i had more time and morem otivation ot go out and meet people who would make me really think on a romatic level. i mean dating in Rez is sort of silly, especially dating other residents. it would only complicate things alot. if it does not work out you will have to be mature and not let it interfere with your living. and studying knowing they live in the same building or complex. there is a few people i would see, but i am still waiting forthe right moment to spark something. i mean exams is sure as heck not the best time to sprak a relationship. and we are getting ready to leave town for school. so it may be a bit hard.

what about winter break?

WOW. in one word summing upthe entire 9 days in Ontario. i mean having to book friedns into time slots was not eally my idea of a good time but well i hope to make it fun. i miss everyone back east and i know they are doing fine . but i cant wait to see them and hang out and do silly things. like we used to do.

Holidays vs family:

one of my big isues that surround the holidays is everyone expects gift. i do too at times but mostly if you have the time to spend with family. cheris it. this winter i wont see my mother. i miss her, and talk to her often but knowing this year you wont get to see face to face. sort of ruins the holiday for me. i love my entire family as much as at times i get flustered with them. each one i LOVE to death and they truely mean alot to me. if it were not for them pussing my sorry ass to go back to school i would have never of come back and learned sooo much and enjoyed every moment of my university life. they are the best family anyone could ask for.

Out went the Funiture:

okayseems stupid to get rid fo it all especially during the winter time. but i mean with a nice carpet down it could be alright. the room is more spacious and has more of a personal touch of class. everyone in rez is shocked of how big it makes to the rooms seem and i do agree i mean it's already poorly designed and lacks appeal. the ghetto is not the best building but i like it and its all that matters.

School and final thoughts.:

school is almost over and i'm glad. as well i would like to think that if i had of dropped PoliSci it would have helped. this help me fill time and space in my day i may still know as little as i knew going in but i can try it again with a better and more understanding prof. I've come back to that Jazz/Funk/tribal musical intrest again. which is sort of fitting with the transitional stage i am currently involved in. i hope this sticks i'm rather enjoying the nice easy listening of the mellow tones. i miss everyone and i will miss everyone from da loopz during the break i hope that this winter goes as well as i hope.
welll signing off.
Kyle

Friends and Holidays

2004-12-08T13:40:00.000-08:00

i wish there was a matchmaker in real life now. because then i would stop making all these foolish choices. once again i have placed someone i crush over into the friends catigory. for thoes who dont know. friedns then become untouchable unless things change. but rarely happens. this is so sad for everyone. the main problem is i cant get this one off my mind since i met the. argh why do i do such dumb things

Hanukkah has finally arrived and the holiday started off grand with friedns who celebrated i here in Rez i like how everyone i've met is so supportive and understanding. this is great. Fiddler on the Roof has been my music of choice for this week . such a great musical and amazing songs. so lovely.
my trip to Ontario is almost all booked up from one place to the next i think i might enjoy coming back to Vancouver to see family here and relaing. doing some research and readings i might need this break. i also need ot send my suitcase soon to London, before the time runs out. my biggest fear is running ou of time for switching flights. so just having carry on would make my life a bit less stressful. Aircanada has a seat sale to Ontario 2 days before i leave. really cheap too. i'm flustered by this because it's 99$ Vancouver to Toronto direct too. instead of my fly all over. well i cant complain i already got my tickets so now i have to enjoy the fect my flighs are booked.

school is almost over. what am i going to do. next term i begin with a a bit of a rwist not knowing where i will be doing my Masters i hope things go well.
well signing off to study.

oh the drama...

2004-12-03T17:15:00.000-08:00

wonderful life i lead.
nothing but Drama its totaly upsetting me and not helping that exams are coming up.

i have am million things going through my head right now. too many to care about and now i've started pushing people away that i notice will not help me progress to achieving my goals.

i made a new friend. he's really nice and a great guy. actually him and his friedns are nice. i just wish i knew them before coming to UCC. or earlier in the term.

roommates are now becoming an issue. well sort of. there was a situation that could have been avoided if there were no alcohol involved. but i guess thats also a part of life. but i'm glad i'm not the only person dealing with this isolated issue. thank the lord. i've been thinking of either moving out into my own place or with people more motivation. or even maybe another building. where the roommate situation would be more positive. i mean currently with one back home and the two remaining are alright. but the smoking inside has to end... i dont like my room smelling of smoke. i cant complain too much but it's stupid. and the security has been keeping an eye one this one. the last straw was taken last night when i tried to be nice and got burned. the rude ways people can be.. enough is enough. i've tried to be nice . now i just dont care.
blah so this is my roommate rant.

I'm becoming more and more happier in Kamloops as i make more friends who live off campus and are far more mature. i turely miss alot of people at home in London, Toronto, and Vancouver. i just hop that things will become alot cooler when i get back to London.

so i've officially distanced myself from the relationship problem. (for those who are confused, this is more of a devision of my private life i wont include here)

i was thinking for the summer either NBB, or something really neat. like Ikea. or something either in Vancouver, London, Toronto just a job with friedns and without a emotional connection
cause well it's just a summer job

this new diet is intresting cause i feel really good but i cant tell anymore.
and i've come to think far too much when writing my essays i go on too many tangents than making my essays more of a philosophical rant of the issues. with really no direction. this is not helping my education. too much to think about.

Exams are next week and the week after then i'm on a plane back EAST!!!!!!!!
i'm so excited. yay.
hopefuly tou all get to see me at some point.
getting to see some really old friends and some new friends this shall be intresting to see.
I'm so homesick right now... just thinking of toronto. and london.

Deer!!!!

2004-12-02T02:18:00.000-08:00

okay so now i know deers inhabit UCC
yes i saw 2 deer's bums as it ran across the street.
today is intresting i finishied TC & all my essays, not the stess and strain of exams.

Erin and i talk more frequently, i'm awesome.

side note. my keyboard is a slut and does not like me..... :(
she does not like when i use M or space with it.... she is a bitch...
but i love here anyways.

and i was picked up many times when i was in the bar last week .

quiet days suck 23 hours of fucken no noise.... i'm going slowly insane. yes erin was right Rez life is boring during exams. yeah it sux...
and not in the good way.

i've neglected to inform you all on my trip that was cancelled to Israel. much sorry. (i know it does not makes sense my comment) MY BAD...

also sidenote. I have one awesome thing... 2 weeks until i come back to london!!!! YAY!
well going to bed... sleep might be an intresting factor in my education.

I LOVE ERIN AND I LOVE ROSES

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shopping district

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the beauty of a mountain school

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Look show!

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the field... yup snow!

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more snow

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so it snowed!

Janko Naglic

2004-11-18T13:59:00.000-08:00

Another sad note to post.
The Church Street Community is mourning another great lost to the community.
a few weeks ago at The Barn, Janko Naglic was taken away from the community. he will forever be missed by everyone who's frequinted the bar. This colorful entrepreneur was there to offer some of the greatest moments. A memorial in his honor will be held Nov 21st @ 7pm . anyone wishing to Donate. donations to be made to Casey House Hospice. instead of any other method.
R.I.P Janko.

2004-11-18T12:57:00.000-08:00

Janko Naglic
Celebrating a Life
Sunday 7pm at "The Barn"
418 Church Street
Toronto

2004-11-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

morning in kamloops nov 14th

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nov - 14 @ 7am

2004-11-10T13:19:00.000-08:00

alright here is a bit of an updates of what has been going on.

Gossip:
alright miriam is back for her affair, and with with jon. this is becoming so dramatic it makes alot of things in my life seem way better. she once again is pregnent. again. who's baby. i want to believe her on saying that it's jons. but i fell it might actually be the affairs, be remeber this is just my opinion and it may not be true.

Birthdays:
happy belated birthdays go out to the following.
Lea - my older sister. she rox toronto... she is now 26. congrats on finding the new roommate.
Grace - Happy 1st b-day. i hope the gift of mommy would help. sorry obut the misfortune.

Deaths:
so sorry to hear. and to post. but yesterday at approx 12:05am EST. Michelle Seigal's grandmother passed away. unfortunetly i could not fly back for the shiva. but i will pray for the family and wish them all the best on recoving from this tragic loss.

New:
on a lighter note. yes my printer also died but it's not worth talking about. thoes around me at the time knew she was being a bum to me. so i got a new one from http://www.futureshop.ca
it's just not the same without her but i needed to print off some stuff for the trip to israel.
okay yes i am planning this trip to israel this year. i feel it's time i go and take in some culture. it sure is about time i did something like this. so today i mail off the cheque and hope i got a spot on this trip in dec. if so i am extending my flights around so i can stay in vancouver unless i can find cheap tix to and from vancouver for christmas.
also i now have a wireless mouse and keyboard. for thoes lonely nights in bed. i can atleast pick good movies from my computer. as well the dvd player is once again back and functioining.

Weather:
well it's been grand but also i need this . i dont like snow in the streets so i am happier its just in the mountain sections. but it's made me sick because i never really know how to dress. so now i have a cold... booo. i must find a recipie for Vegan motza ball soup. i love motzaball soup. it's such a comfort food. atleast for me. plus i think i should be eating more frequently. instead of this when i remember.

Intresting sites to check out would be the following:

http://www.pentagonstrike.co.uk/flash.htm#Main - this should really be intresting for anoyne who still remebers the whole 9-11 situation. intresting facts and points in this video. please remember i do not want people to think i made this. i'm clearly not that creative. so i shall tell you i dont know the creator. but i sure would like the tank them for the info i've received from watching it.

thanks catch you all back again soon.
p.s. pictures of kamloops are coming i just need to find time to do the. and good weather for this.

Why?

2004-11-05T13:31:00.000-08:00

1. What color pants are you wearing? No wearing any.

2. What are you listening to right now? Usher

3. Favorite TV show?I've become boring and i dont get tv in my room but when i do watch it. I like the news and Elections.

4. Last thing you ate? does coffee count as eating food? cause if so. that's what i just had for breakfast.

5. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? this is tough but i would think... Orange. b/c yur also yummie to eat!

6. What is the weather right now? this might require me to get out of bed... argh... alright, its partially cloudy with sun, and a bit windy. but it's like this all the time.

7. Last person you talked to on the phone? a client.

8. Do you like the person who sent you this? This is still debateable. but i think she is alright.

9. How are you today? in pain. my head, back, neck and tummy...

10. Favorite Drink? ah this is where coffee would be placed... alright.

11. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? my 2L bottle of Rum & Coke.

12. Favorite Soda? I'm not a huge fan of soda, it's only goot for mixer. so Coke

13. Favorite Sport? Football. swimming.

14. Hair Color: brown

15. Eyes? brown

16. Do you wear contact lenses? maybe i should.

17. Siblings and their ages? Lea - 26, matt - 23

18. Summer or winter? winter in the mountains, summer in the city/nude beach

19. Is "I am." a complete Sentince? Yes...

20. Favorite musical artist? Dashborad Confessionals , Linkin Park,and Yellow Card

21. Chocolate or Vanilla? both. what sort of question is this?

22. Do you want your friends to play and write back? if they find time to. sure.

23. Who is most likely to respond? no one... thanks guys!

24. Least likely? everyone.

25. Occupation? student/counselor/researcher

26. What books are you reading? for pleasure : Hush. and amazing Psychological Thriller. and for school... OMGosh enough reading. this is why i need contacts or glasses.

27. What's on your mouse pad? do i look poor? j/k um it's called my leg...

28. Favorite board game? Monopoly and chess

29. What did you do last night? Pool party, then Thursty Thursday.

30. Favorite smells? Brussel Sprouts.. (eww i know)

31. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? sure

32. What inspires you? nakedness. and friends, family, and co-workers.

33. Buttered, Plain, or salted popcorn? whatever come out of the campus vending machines.

34. Favorite Car? the new SMART cars by Diamler-Benz

35. Favorite Flower? any. they all look so nice

36. Favorite Hobby? jogging, or socializing (coffee dates)

37. Age: Je suis veingt-deux ans.

2004-11-05T13:00:00.000-08:00

bonjour.

wow last night was awsome swimming, drinking, dancing, and Twister...
plus Central Rez got new washing machines!!! yay now they all take downy. Right after i go out and buy thoes silly downy balls. grrr
I felt bad last night i sorta blew off a close friend of mine before swimming. but i had to rush over to the pool. oh well.
tonight is Closet Monsters show in Kelowna. look i get ot miss it too... so upset too.
well as each day come closer to the final departure dat i phase out the thoughts of how many more bloody exams i got i feel asthough its endless. i mean you know how it is once one is over another reading for the next one. next week is a paper, exam, and quiz. as well thursday is no classes here. odd but i thik i want ot check out the Pow-wow. i mean its going ot be fun and a great way to comemorate the vetrans who dedicated their lives for our freedom. as well as how great of an expierence it should be i cant remember the last time i actually celebrated this event.

also last night i met another Jewish Girl on campus. we are thinking of actually developing a Hillel group on campus it's becoming quite the place to be now! i'm so shocked! plus this trip to Israel i hope i can go! oh soo many things going on. and that exam i thought i would fail hardcore.. oh yeah 50% for effort! i know it's not a good mark but i was aiming for a 30% because i so blanked and did not understand anything prior to entering the exam.
wel tonight is rock trivia... lets see how we do this time around. aiming for 75 points...
check back for updates

2004-11-04T16:36:00.001-08:00

03/11/04

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03/11/04

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Nurse Betty and Harry getting ready to .....

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Harry Potter Look-A-Like

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Central Rez

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Me On Moving in day!

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Friends B-day party

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My Kitchen

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the mountain

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these are Kamloops

Kamloops w/end of fun

2004-11-03T23:13:00.001-08:00

wow alright guys

here is the update.
i got my digi cam finally and the flights are booked, now to wait for the new grant to pay for everything. muaha
yay for me i'm finally figuring this thing out.!!!

Kamloops w/end of fun

2004-11-03T23:13:00.000-08:00

Up To Now...

2004-10-31T10:31:00.000-08:00

Hey guys.

so I moved away and live so far away. this was for the bettering of myself and the strengthening of our friendship and ability to trust. (harder for some then others)

so here is the current situation.
I live In Kamloops at University College of The Cariboo... so to be Thompson Rivers University.
yes i miss everyone back home in London & Toronto. i cant stop thinking how much i took advantage of our great parties and how we've had some of the greatest time.

my room is great and when i get a digi cam i will be posting how wonderful this Cell is. it's almost like living on a ship, thats small but tall... and jail like on the inside. but i like it. it's now what i would view as my school home...

currently i dont know what to do about love. so i leave this empty. But this is how i feel about love.. me and my 3 factors of love.

Emotional - i mean with out emotions you cant express your true feelings. and if you cant do that then what's the point. your better off dating a tree.
Spiritual - there has to be a certain level of spirituality, by means of soulness, almost like a soul-mat but better because the two sould need each other to develop, and strengthen.
Pysiological - all good Love has physical attributes. oh yes i mean sex and touching. being held or holding someone. a hug, kiss, or other forms of physical interaction. this helps build a stronger relationship because it validats the affection one has for the other.

I've made a few friends and i like to say we do enjoy socializing. i find at times i still need Kyle moments. which i believe is still healthy. like right now i'm in a Kyle Moment. typing away in my blog site expressing my feelings.

roommates... hmm yes i got 3 great roommates, and i like the fact we are all different and can teach and learn from each others experiences. i may at times seem flustered but that comes with living with someone different. and the adjustment. naw i like it.

The school year has been a bit rough, the adjustment and social aspects has changed from Fanshawe and Western. it would seem a bit more holistical with the approuches. which hey i dont mind actually i prefer. you freedom to creat is nice to know there is that option. school is going well i am enjoying though and my classes even though i hate a few i like them because they are intresting subjects. i have some classes i know i will do well and some i wont but all you can do is read and learn it's the life of a student that is clearly my motivation to do well.

I've also slowed down my pace on the party scene i know we used to party alot but here i dont drink as often as i would have and i dont smoke that often (smoking i mean... welll you know what i mean) yeah i've only had one moment where i think i might have required some form of Chemicals. but i did not get any and i fell stronger about that.

I saw Bif Naked the other day it was awsome and currently up to date i've been to the 2 main good bars of Kamloops one that just closed down and the other one is good on weds- for buck-a-beer night. other then that i spend alot of time in my room studying or socializing. i got the DVD player working so now i can watch real movies and burn music cd'smy computer still does not like me. although i have learned that it's actually better to leave my computer turned on. sounds odd. but i'm sticking ot this idea given to me by a friend.

i've also learned to enjoy Red wine and while doing this i have pick one of my new red wines to drink... rare to find but good for the tongue. Black Tower Red Wine. good stuff and i enjoy the fact it's rare. makes me feel better and more special this way.

i realize for a student to have this much clothes is insane. but i cant think of not having all this here for school my laundry is costing me a fortune but i like it this way. and the idea i dont have to wear the same silly outfit day in and day out if so releaving. i mean how often can you really pull off that look before someone notices it and comments. (superficial kyle comes out)

okay and the most exciting part is the fact i'm going to be all over for this winterbreak. so here are some of the new dates....

get a pen and paer handy.

The Tour of Kyle Winter 2004

London: Dec 16th-20th

Thurday arrival 10pm appx. (fly into Pearson International and Robert Qing it into london)

Thursday GT's (time permitting)

Friday - Fanshawe College & UWO. during the day / during the night probably Ceeps.

Saturday - 181 King street. from 12-close. (I like vodka shots)

Sunday - Breakfast with the Summer'04 family
All are welcome to join

Monday - I hope to see you all one last time untill the next time.

Toronto Dec 20th-25th

Monday - seeing family.

Tuesday is still open

Wednesday - 5ive for College night

Thursday - London Pub (Richmond Hill)

Friday - Downtown somewhere.

Saturday - Final Goodbye to Everyone...

to make this even more exciting I think i will be more excited to see each and every one of you all. even if it's just for Coffee or lunch or a walk along the water. i dont mind i want to see you all... it's going to be rough.

Please feel free to respond here. i know it might seem silly bu i would like to knowwhat you all are thinking. it helps me sleep at night.

I love each and Every one of you. Thanks for taking the time to read this big boring Blog...

Kyle

Welcome to my Blog

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Welcome to my Blog Site.
I hope your not expecting too much or too little to come from this. The goal here is to express my happy, sad and emotional moments. This would also include exciting memorable times. The grammar. I think shall be scratched. This will become my free flowing thought's and idea's but always feel free to comment on my stupidity. I know I can take it.